Monday, June 27, 2005

Are you stupid??


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I didn't score so well, but hey it is monday morning and I go on vacation in two days. I borrowed this from Christas' blog, just for fun. I also have a fun new sling coming from Christa that I can use now with Gwendolyn and with the new baby. BB2 was kicking me in the bladder the other night. Such an amazing feeing, not having to pee, but feeling a life growing inside you.

Friday, May 27, 2005

Puffy Baby Picture


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She looks worse today, the puffiness is creeping down into her eye lids. The dr put her on antibiotics today with concern for staf and the swelling not having gone down. I feel so bad for her. I don't know if it hurts or itches, but she seems bothered by it. Poor baby:(
We bought the mosquito machine and it cost $500:eek2 , but it is eating them already.:clap
Keep us in your prayers that the swelling goes down.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Damn Mosquitos

We spent the morning in the Dr.s office. What I thought was a goose egg on Gwendolyns forehead from a fall was in fact a bug bite. This morning her whole forehead was swollen about an inch out and was about to creep down into her eyes. Talk about panic, but kept my cool overall, hormonal as I am. We got into the Dr and he said she just reacts bad to mosquitos, thank that part has been obvious for a while. Any bite she gets swell to twice the size it sould be and gets a scabby head to it. She never seems bothered by them and was mildly bothered by her forehead. The head/face being so vascular makes them react different. He put her on Zyrtec for 5 days and gave us more to use sporadically for the rest of summer. I have to watch her forehead and if it turns bright red and seems painful, then it could have turned into staf infection. He does not recommend using bug dope at all because of the deet, just to keep her covered. Dh is at the store right now to buy a mosquito machine. They are said to eliminate all mosquitos within an acre. You empty out a bagfull every day or so. I would say $300 is worth a normal headed baby. Is you are unaware, Alaska is the mosquito capital of the World, they are everywhere!!!!

Monday, May 23, 2005

My interview

Elaine, per my request on her blog. She asked me these questions. My answers are below. If you want to be interviewed, let me know in the comments, and I'll give you some questions. Rules follow my q&a

1.When Gwendolyn was born, what was the first thing you remember saying to her?
My first statement in general was "how big is she?" but I remember telling her she didn't have to cry, that she didn't receive the big Cross ears. Most of my moms sibling have big ears that stick out and that was one of the first things my mom did, pull back her hat and look at her ears with relief. I am positive I said some endearing things prior to that, I remember kissing her, but that is my first active memory.
2. How did you meet your husband?
Matt and I knew of each other, due to this being a smallish town. Both he and my brother are hockey players and that is a "group" here. We went to different high schools, but had some mutual friends during and after high school. My boyfriend during college ended up hanging out with matt and his friends while snowmachining, but he never wanted me around for those things, butthead. Matt was waiting and ready to persue me once we broke up. He gave it a two month grace period then jumped in. We would all hang out at a local sports bar and discovered that him and I were the only two people who had not seen Titanic, so off we went alone to a movie. A few days after that he call to ask me to go to Arctic Man (snowmachine race out of town - like sturgis for harley people), I agreed. My comment to my mom after hanging up the phone was "this won't be serious, he snores". 7 years later we are married with 1 1/2 kids and he still snores.
3. If you could go back to one point in your life and have a “do over” would you and what point would it be?
I would go back to the start of High School and make better choices. Though I may not be the person I am today without those experiences. In Jr High I was on the Gymnastics team and enjoyed cross country skiing and looked forward to going out for that team in High School. Instead, I started smoking and sneaking out and making dumb choices. I often wonder who I would be now if I had made better choices then. I feel I do a great job of helping people in my job and personal life and love the friends I still have from that time frame, so no regrets.
4. Your blog says, “I have shot and killed a Black Bear.” Tell us about this. In May of 2000 my Dad and I went to Valdez to pick up two of my cousins. They had kayaked out past Columbia Glacier for a few days, intending on camping and killing a Black Bear each. Our job was to take the boat out to pick them up, they didn't want to paddle all the way back in. It takes 4 hours or so in the boat to make it to the area. My dad owns and operates a 32 foot charter boat that sleeps 6 people. I bought a hunting license prior to going, thinking I might shoot a bear. We found the boys right where they were supposed to be, each having shot a bear. My dad and I saw at least 10 bears milling around on shore and decided to go for it. We took the dingy (little boat on the back of a big boat) to shore and were watching 4 bears off to the right. I look to the left and see a huge bear by itself. I say what wrong with that one? He says nothing go for it, its huge! I lay down on the beach and sight in the bear with the scope. Amazinly, my first shot was right on the heart and he started flipping all around and scurried off into the woods. My dad could not fathom sending his little girl into the woods to see if this huge bear was dead or not, so he went. He came back dragging the bear and rolling it to get it closer to shore. My cousins came to shore then and I bribed them to skin it for me. I bought them dinner when we got back to town. This may sound gross but, a bear looks very human without the fur, it is odd. Turns out the bear was 6'4", huge for a Black Bear and very old. Bear tastes like what they have been eating and this bear lived on fish. So imagine beef texture and fish taste, nasty. I had lots made into polish sausage, but still never liked it. Matt went down a couple weeks ago to try and kill a bear, but they only saw one mama. So I am still the big huntress of the house. I told him he wasn't allowed to kill one unless it was bigger than mine, fat chance. When we arrived back in the harbor in Valdez we had all three hides hung across the flying bridge (top floor of a boat that has the roof folded down). There were tourists walking to docks and the first to stop saw the hides and commented, ah look a mama bear and her two cubs. That is how much bigger mine was than my cousins. Had that statement been made prior to them skinning it for me, I would have been in a world of hurt.
5. What’s your favorite magazine?
People, I love the sensless celebrity gossip. It is so brain numbing. That and I can usually complete the crossworld puzzle and that makes me feel smart.

The Official Interview Game Rules

1. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "interview me."

2. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person's will be different.

3. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.

4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.

5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

I've been tagged...

Tagged by Nikki...passing on the favor to the 3 at the bottom.The rules are simple when you're tagged.Choose 5 items from the list to write about.Tag 3 other individuals when you're done.
If I could be a scientist...
If I could be a farmer... all my plants would grow with the minimalist of water. That seems to be my current problem.
If I could be a doctor...
If I could be a painter... I would paint building murals that would make people smile when they saw them.
If I could be a gardener...
If I could be a missionary... I would take my family and travel to Mexico and teach how to sustain themselves and better their lives for future generations.
If I could be an athlete...
If I could be a lawyer...I would prosecute all the murderers, child molesters, mean people, rapists.... and always win.
If I could be an innkeeper...
If I could be a professor...
If I could be a writer...
If I could be a llama rider...
If I could be a bonnie pirate...
If I could be an astronaut...
If I could be a world famous blogger...
If I could be a justice on any one court in the world...
If I could be married to any current famous political figure...I don't care who it is, but they would love me and they would make it policy that issurance always covers birth control and men had to struggle to afford viagra.

I am supposed to now pass on my tag, but all the bloggers I know have already been tagged. Maybe I should think up a new tag??

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Get Down Tonight

I just found a fun website that tells you what the #1 song was the day you were born. I am "Get Down Tonight" by KC and the Sunshine (or something) band. I love that song and always dance to it and sing it randomly when there is nothing else to say. I think it is karma that it was my song. The song for Gwendolyn is not one have heard of, but I am horrible with names, so I may know it. "Yeah" by Usher feat Lil Jon and Ludacris. Don't know?? I am more of a Country girl these days. I throw in old school hiphop when I am going out. Nothing like Alasnis to get a person up when they are bored. I am more of a movie person, the radio is fine enough for me, I go spend money on purchasing movies anyday.

Got some maternity clothes in the mail yesterday off ebay. Don't think I will last anywhere near 23 weeks in my normal clothes this time. Still don't feel terribly pregnant, only tired. Have some of the same food aversions and some new ones, garlic is not my friend right now.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Is this what I have to look forward to??


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Does this mean I am in trouble in 15 years??  I think she looks like her father, I would never get that excited about Busch beer.  This is actually an old picture, but i love it.  I am feeling nostaligic to babies.  I am having a hard time comprehending that I will have an infant in my arms in 9 months.  With Gwendolyn, it took a year to get pregnant, so I had tons of time to wish and plan and dream.  This baby was intended, but I am amazed it happened so fast.  Matt is dieing to tell people.  I had Gwendolyns t-shirt made yesterday so we are ready.  I was planning on waiting till mothers day, but looks like Matt and my Dad may go bear hunting in Valdez.  Plus, I don't know that Matt could hold out that long.  I said that if we had a family meeting between now and then, we would announce.  Looks like we will have one this weekend for family business.  I am not sure how Marwan and Erin will feel, they only had the solo pregnancy for 2 weeks at this point.  I hope they are excited to share this, we're committed.



I feel great with no morning sickness, but would LOVE to have a nap everyday.  I am looking forward to people knowing.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Oh My God, 2 Lines!!

I have been feeling out of sorts, but had NONE of the signs of the first pg, so I peed on a stick and wammo!!! The worst part Matt is out of town till sunday, it is going to kill me to know and not tell him on the phone. I have no idea how far along I am, I have not had a period since May 03. I had no sore boobs, no pee alot, nothing obvious. I am still floored and keep wandering back into the bathroom to look at the line again, wow. I had just foung out my brother and SIL are pg and are expecting in October. I was very concerned that they weren't going to be able to concieve, my SIL has graves disease and that makes it harder. When I found out the were PG, I was very excited and secretly started hoping I wouldn't get PG till July. That way I could loan them all the stuff I have and they would be getting done with stuff when we needed it. Well that won't work now and I am kinda bummed, I was looking forward to sharing. At least now they will be real close in age. My brother is our only chance at real cousins, we have lots of cousins with babies that we claim, if you follow. I am rambling, still in shock. Any great suggestions for telling DH sunday night?? I am thinking about buying a shirt for Gwendolyn that says worlds greatest big sister. WOW, I am so excited!!!!

I have been meaning to post this since friday when I found out, but time has not been my friend. I managed to keep my mouth shut for two whole days without bursting at the seams. I bought a shirt with intentions of having the words "Worlds Greatest Big Sister (to be)" written on it. I bagged that idea for telling Matt. I didn't think I would have the patience to wait for him to notice what she was wearing, not so observant that one. We will use that shirt for telling our families. I decided to have Gwendolyn give him the test stick. Matt had a hockey gave this evening and we only saw each other for a couple minutes before he left, so I waited longer. I gave Gwendolyn her bath and had her in PJ's waiting to say goodnight to daddy after hockey. He came home and stayed down in the garage unpacking things for half an hour. I start stomping on the floor to get him to come up. After twice he opens the door and asks if I want some thing, yeah come say goodnight to baby. He starts up the stairs with a huge cooler in front of him, meanwhile I send Gwendolyn over to the top of the stairs with Daddys' present. She starts waving it around between the rails and I am standing behind her giggling. He asks "whats that, a pregnancy test?" Me, "yep and if you don't believe that one you can see this one" taking the one from the following morning out of my pocket. (yeah I had to take another one, like the first was lieing to me) Matt, wow I didn't think it would happen that fast. It took us a year and then Clomid last time. It's nice to have someone else know my news that I actually talk to. My driving force behind taking the test was the wrong smell of Burger King on friday. When I am pregnant I have an aversion to pattied meat, hamburgers or sausage patties, they are just wrong. Normally BBQ smell appealing, not now. I don't get nauseas, I just do not want that food.

Anyhow, I gave blood yesterday and should find out today an approximate due date. I am still so excited. I took it as a good sign that Matt had a night full of dreams on Sunday. He couldn't remember it all, but he was excited and telling everyone his news. I'll be back when I have a due date.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Too Much To Do

I feel like every day is gone before I know it. I have tons going on in every aspect of my life. I have a training I recruited for and am overseeing at work, planning a mock trial for these students, planning a swearing-in ceremony once they are done, planning a 1st annual fund-raiser for work (I work at a non-profit and we need money) do you know how hard it is to sell $100 raffle tickets?? the grand prize is $10,000 though, trying to set-up meeting with the Superior Court Justice to start handling Minor Consuming cases - this is just the work things I am juggling. Non work, our (mine and my husbands) families are trying to purchase a business to make ours. We made an offer today of 2 million and the current owner is thinking about it. This is huge and could change lots of things in our life. I hope it goes through, eventually we could sit fat and pretty.
That and I am still a mom and wife, those are very time consuming and the things I like best. Gwendolyn is walking more and more everyday. She seems to get fusterated easy and I chalk it up to not being able to communicate what she wants. She will be sitting on the floor playing with a toy and just break-down crying-yelling, more fit like than anything. I wish I had given more thought to sign language. What seems to help the most and I don't like doing it, is to pick her up take her into her room and put her in the crib. She immediatley stops crying. It is like the world is overwhelming her and she wants to do nothing but play with her pacifier. She only gets her pacifier in her crib or if we are in the car.
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She is an active little thing. We went to playgroup this morning and she was EVERYWHERE on EVERYTHING!! She would scale the kids highchair and try to climb in it. She was climbing on and over all the other kids, mainly to kiss them, she is a lover. I have taken to sitting on the floor, eases the argument of no you cannot climb on the couch - see mom is here on the floor too. This means she will sit in my lap while I am sitting cross-legged. Apparently this is a bad habit, she tried to sit on the other kids just because they were sitting on the floor. Didn't realize I was ruining my kids by sitting with her. She sure keeps me hopping. Something new and enteraining everyday. She is with Daddy watching a hockey tournament right now, action packed day. One of the other moms at playgroup, whose son is 5 days younger that Gwendolyn, is due in 5 weeks. I could not imagine being 8 months pregnant right now. Yes, I want to get pregnant and have another baby, but not in 5 weeks. She will be so tired!! May is my ideal month to get pregnant again. I liked a Spring baby, but I don't want to share March with the next baby. Plus, I have TONS of girls clothes that follow that time of year. It just makes sense. July would also work for me. Like I have a ton of say in that matter. Oh well. I will be back tomorrow with more of my internal dilema of leaving my baby for a few days to go snowmachining.

Monday, March 21, 2005

I'm Found

I am so excited, I have been "found". I had two comments on my last post, yeah!! I "know" Carol, as well as you can know someone through cyberspace, but Michele was a surprise. I did venture over to Micheles' blog to check her out. One of her recent post was 10 things you didn't know about her that would surprise you (title was along those lines, but that was the moral of the post). I don't know that I would come up with 10 fascinating thing, but I will try.
1) I have shot and killed a Black Bear
2) In my stupid youth, I "borrowed" a car
3) Cosmic karma coming back around, I had my work vehicle stolen while 150 miles from civilization.
4) I brought marijuana to Church camp as a stupid teenager
5) I went back and have since been a Youth Counselor (are you catching a theme, righting my youthful wrongs)
I'll come back with 5 more some other day, I am out of fascinating inspiration.
This is so fun. Speaking of the blog world, I was reading a new magazine, I think it was called NEWS. It pulls all the top articles from various other magazines and compiles them in their magazine. Imagine my surprise when one of the articles was about Dooce. It mentioned how she had lost her job because of things she has written in her blog. It gave the definition of being "dooced", this is now a word. Such a crazy world. I think her blog was the first I had read, a fellow March Munchkin mom had posted a link to it. Too fun.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Sorry so big

Sorry the family picture below is so big, still learning.
I was just visiting chaoticharmony and saw a fun "exercise" that she had completed from another blog. Instructions follow:
Nearest Book
Courtesy of Talking Toad.
1. Grab the nearest book
2. Open the book to page 123
3. Find the fifth sentence
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog, along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it. Just grab what is closest!
" The Juvenile Courts Response to Victims of Juvenile Offenders"
Regardless of participents' experiences as victims if violent versus property crimes, there was considerable consensus as to victims' needs from the juvenile court and justice system. Blah blah blah, the rest of the sentences are that boring, essencially, contact the victim and make sure their needs are met.

I am feeling blogger bold today. I joined in on the fun on chaoticharmony and posted a recipe for Bitchin Kitchin a cook book being compiled of bloggee recipies. Should be fun.

This is us


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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Gwendolyns' 1st Birthday

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Her 1st Birthday was a week ago and it seems she has grown up so much in the last week. She is now walking more than a step and she is "talking". Prior to a week ago, she babbled mama and dada and ook (Duke the dog), now she looks like she is really trying to formulate words and speak to you. These are actual conversations. It is too bloomin cute. I gave her the FIRST haircut on sunday, that too makes her seem so much more grown up. Just a trim of the bangs makes her look toddler like and less baby. This has all happened too fast for my tastes. Where is my baby going?? We went to Mary Kay party at Angies last night, really about the girls and the munchies and wine, make-up is a sidebar. That was the first time the Gwendolyn was the least bit clingy and that is no fun. I loved having an independent baby who was the life of the toddlers. Not last night, if I was more than 2 feet away, panic and cry. I hope this was just a result of the year shots on monday. She had a slight temperature and was emotionally tender all day with daddy. That and she woke up crying at 10pm and wanted nothing to do with me, nursing, being held, daddy. She just wanted to sit there and cry. It was rather pathetic, broke my heart.
I am very proud of my limited blogger talents. I managed to create links to other bogs that I have lurked at. Plus, if all goes as planned, I will have put a picture into a blog. Well, I ought to so some work - considering I am at work and my boss decided to come in today.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Oh how life changes

A little about me:
I am 29 years old (Marita) and am married to a wonderful man (Matt) and have a (barely) 1 year old daughter (Gwendolyn). We live in Alaska and I have lived here essencially all my life, more on that in a future Blog. I work in the Non-profit field at a Youth Court. This is a diversion from the formal Juvenile Justice system. We have youth judges and attorneys that handle cases of their peers. I have worked here for over 5 years. I have both my parents and one brother, who is married to a wonderful woman. My parents live here and my brother just moved back after receiving his PhD in Geology. I hope that they are able to have a baby soon, they would be wonderful parents. My husband is an only child and his parents also live here. That means we have a spoiled child. We are also the parents to a furbaby, Duke the mighty Yorkie, also spoiled. We would like to get pregnant again soon, but will take that as it happens. I would like 4 kids and my husband is willing to go along at this point. We were married June 9, 2001 and had been together 3 years prior to that. We got together at the very end of my College days, a month shy of graduation. I was ready to settle down and grow up and we fit together perfect.

I was driving home yesterday and started reflecting on how my life has changed in the last 8 years. I used to be this "wild" party girl, not unlike the two girls driving in front of me, not a real care in the World. They were driving, sharing a cigarette and laughing. I saw myself at 22, driving along with either Gretchen or Jenn, headed to the Red Fox for beer after class. No major responsibilities, make it to class, write paper, go to work. I yearned for the right turn that would take me to those carefree days of hanging out at the Red Fox. Yet, I would not give up anything that I have now. I am now a married woman, own our home in hills, drive a suburban, work a very meaningful (degree necesary) job, and most important I am a mom. I could never go back and often feel pity for those who are still searching for what will satisfy them. I am thankful to be out of the dating scene and in the comfort of a very loving marriage. I love the role of being a mom. I like how "important" people recognize me in the community and will engage me in significant conversation. Does that make me a snob? Not sure that I care if it does. I feel like I have worked hard to get where I am and am very proud.

Enough rambling for one day. I need to figure out how to link people on the right side of my screen. Back for more later.

Monday, March 14, 2005

First post

Hello all Blogger out there in Blog World. I am expanding my cyber comfort level to include blogging. I have intended to accomplish this all day, but just now tried. This being said, I have to pick-up Chinese and go home. I will come back and explore the possibilities more.